So its the start of a new year, 2013, never thought it would start the way it did, i got a call at ten minutes to midnight with my bf telling me he loves me, sweetest sound in the world. just sitting here listening to the rain pour down , enjoying another day off , i really love rainy days, they make me all lazy and  brings up the past . i started thinking back one year and then i end up going back two , then it turns into me thinking about when i was sixteen , how things were so easy but so hard in my eyes, how i could of made my life better but some of the choices i made stopped me from making better choices. It feels like now a days every time i get a head i fall back a couple of steps. well im logging off here. gotta start another  cold day.